why is it?
what is it?
this fear feeling
of lonely soul self -
conscious caught
in time warp thoughts
that resonate with empathy
of my own cruel callous-
dastardly - to set her free
in spite of all the sympathy
i feel for her
relentlessly
that stabs me in the heart
to read
the words of her despondency
on diary notes she left around
caught there in her love for me
and now shes gone
from here and i am left
with many memories
of kindness that she did for me
her beauty sweet and giving heart
a comfort
but even from the start
her nature of such wondrous form
could not undo the tragic harm
my heart was gone
from in my chest
another one i loved the best
and forsook her for some blind fool thought
and wicked was this lesson taught
the folly of my stupid heart
that left me with this sweet sweet girl
who should have really rocked my world
but love is more than can be seen
and no one understands this thing
every person i did meet
would say shes beautiful and sweet
i tried to love her
five long years
but when we cuddled
in night to sleep
my arms embraced
a fear that creeped
my mind communioned
with the void
and falling, falling falling
toyed with thoughts of dark despair
and held old dreams
now made from air.
lonely i feel now and hopeless too
i think of all my time with you
oblivions waters
it sinks beneath
I'm not just a fool
i am a thief.
