The Shadow Planet.

in the shadow world.
same time, same place as where we are,
but removed by magic
so as to be unseen by most
save that it effects this world
with plots and schemes
of foul devising
and fades its agents away like mists
to leave man pondering
the evil in his midst.

the globe of this strange other world
is all about it formed grotesque
were fearsome shapes and crags
in shadow's dizzied churled
menace and foretell of dooms
and so arranged with artful chaos
as to defy even that sense of beauty
which in a hostile rugged landscape can be found
no real life adapted to these horrors
pointed sharp and stinking poison.

no sun of light shines in its sky
but a shadow ball more black than night
which shoots its blackness out like waves
and covers everything that's here
in oil black oppressive fear
a thousand variants of dark
a lightless universe of stark and evil gloom.

the shadow planet is with our world
the empty space about us filled
the darkness driven out but never killed
it's empty, evil, cold and black
and waits to take us ever back
into the abyss from which we came
the never place with nothing name.

and there upon that poisoned sphere
exists the nameless creature witch
in formless malevolence and hate
and secret scheming
endless waits
and sees with eye like blind though seeing
this world's every living being
and from the hidden places
seeps its formless hands like liquid creeps
into atom's shadows place
the memory of its faceless face
and adds to natures boundless gifts
the errors and the tiny rifts
the opposite of that which lives.

other woman - run on

why is it?
what is it?
this fear feeling
of lonely soul self -
conscious caught
in time warp thoughts
that resonate with empathy
of my own cruel callous-
dastardly - to set her free
in spite of all the sympathy
i feel for her
relentlessly
that stabs me in the heart
to read
the words of her despondency
on diary notes she left around
caught there in her love for me
and now shes gone
from here and i am left
with many memories
of kindness that she did for me
her beauty sweet and giving heart
a comfort
but even from the start
her nature of such wondrous form
could not undo the tragic harm
my heart was gone
from in my chest
another one i loved the best
and forsook her for some blind fool thought
and wicked was this lesson taught
the folly of my stupid heart
that left me with this sweet sweet girl
who should have really rocked my world
but love is more than can be seen
and no one understands this thing
every person i did meet
would say shes beautiful and sweet
i tried to love her
five long years
but when we cuddled
in night to sleep
my arms embraced
a fear that creeped
my mind communioned
with the void
and falling, falling falling
toyed with thoughts of dark despair
and held old dreams
now made from air.

lonely i feel now and hopeless too
i think of all my time with you
oblivions waters
it sinks beneath
I'm not just a fool
i am a thief.

Beggar's can

memories conspire
and so delight
and block all avenues
of future desires
and fantasy
becomes difficult
because inspired
the joys remembered
bring with them pain
that distracts to woe
the pleasure seeking brain.

and so
i see now
formed from hope
the most hopeless
wish that comes to call
and dresses itself
in worn cliche.
an ideal form
from which to judge
all beauty, so misused.

the shape of flesh
in forms divine
i see her clearly in my mind
where once stood shadows vague and dark
she crystallizes in complete detail
the woman of my dreams
my dreams
never again will a pretty face
change my course or slow my pace
i see the X marked
i can not fail.

at Venus' temple i will wait
for time to align the threads of fate
and open once again the veil
that i might see my Goddess
and
though now broken, old and gray
i have waited every day
with faith as true
as mortal fear
for my true love
who will appear
and heal
with one divine sweet kiss
every pleasure
i have missed.

Never Giddy

Never Giddy
no, not again
though i truly can remember when
she said
as we were making love
"I love you"
in a voice such soft
that drove my heart and soul aloft
to heights that doubted
i heard the truth
and answered back
"I love you too."
and kissed again
though it was new
and from that day
i giddy jumped
and felt my heart
within me pumped
and like some silly childish fool
announced out loud
from dawn to night
more profound it seemed
than light
that issues forth
from angels 'bove
my voice rang out
"I'm in Love!"

my heart in such great gladness
tripped
and then my heart was from me ripped
torn as thoughtless as a joke
by words that should have made me choke
they broke the spell of this great love
and made me ruin
this great love
her love for me
was fractured then
and it would never heal again
and how i must have scarred her soul
betrayed the love that made her whole
and killed two birds
with just three words
and left us each then
half a soul
weak and wounded
drifting in the world alone
and this was many years ago
she was younger
perhaps she healed
I'll never know the way she feels
i only know that i weep still
and wonder if another love
is written in the books above
and could it make me skip and jump
like some foolish giddy chump
a love that heals the wound i wrought
and reconciles these damned thoughts
not just someone who wants me
but abolishes this foul infamy
which rankles me within my breast
it cries 'you lost the love that's best'
some love to reprieve this hard damnation
and is more then merely consolation.

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Neither beauty nor grace
or kindness and sweet,
not charm or effort or intention or desire,
no act of will or effect of virtue;
nothing can spell the name of Love.
only time and action,
events unfold
in shapes to complex to be foretold,
in chaos's theory,
with chance and luck,
where weeping in this dungeon
stuck between the iron shafts of light
and the spaces of the night
the stars
which spread across the sky
bespeaking violent infinity.
such lonely beauty
such vast expanse-
a poem typed upon a page
seeks to express this cosmic rage,
and knows that passion and poetry
do not compute
into such terms so small and mute
as tastes and thoughts
in forms filled in
-to rub the lamp
and reveal the djinn-
the savage voice cries to the dark
and lonely void
of this dream we call reality.
you can not weave majic
from threads of
compatibility.
fortune, only, can cast this spell
and save us from this lonesome hell
which greedy in our breast draws breath
till we be silenced by our death.

Land lubber

sail the long day
stream of time
on the waters of my mind
brave the storm front
black cloud thoughts
the port
the journey comes to nought

the sea flows to the edge of earth
then plunges down
toward darker birth
here be dragons
warns the map
yet rudderless the sails do flap

sails of flesh and hull of bones
the captain steers
by will alone
time's current brung him to this sea
the sands of damned mortality

some say that on the golden sands
shining angels singing stand
and moor the ships
with ropes of light
to islands of intense delight
that burn like fires - distant bright
amid the twinkling skies of night

but LO i'v also heard the tale
on night winds blown
un-earthly wail
with sea foam voice
tormented tones
we sail our days
alone alone
until the ship with creaking groan
Breaks and sinks below the waves
forever lost in silent graves.

sung like blues.

Old King Cole was a merry old soul
a merry old soul was he;
He called for his pipe, he called for his bowl
he called for his fiddlers three.

what shall we play
the fiddlers say
and cole sat back and scratched his head

"i dont know the name of the song i feel
down deep in my soul
i'm 'sposed to be merry
so they say
but all i feel is old"

alone i face eternity
with no woman's love
and so salvations
no good to me
with no woman's love.

earth itself is paradise
no eden can compare
except when love is lost forever
then its all nowehere.

and when i stand at the pearly gates
i might see her there
with the man she loves
who isnt me
and heaven is nowhere

maybe i'll be lucky still
the luckiest of men
and why i die
no heaven find
only oblivion.