Never Giddy
no, not again
though i truly can remember when
she said
as we were making love
"I love you"
in a voice such soft
that drove my heart and soul aloft
to heights that doubted
i heard the truth
and answered back
"I love you too."
and kissed again
though it was new
and from that day
i giddy jumped
and felt my heart
within me pumped
and like some silly childish fool
announced out loud
from dawn to night
more profound it seemed
than light
that issues forth
from angels 'bove
my voice rang out
"I'm in Love!"
my heart in such great gladness
tripped
and then my heart was from me ripped
torn as thoughtless as a joke
by words that should have made me choke
they broke the spell of this great love
and made me ruin
this great love
her love for me
was fractured then
and it would never heal again
and how i must have scarred her soul
betrayed the love that made her whole
and killed two birds
with just three words
and left us each then
half a soul
weak and wounded
drifting in the world alone
and this was many years ago
she was younger
perhaps she healed
I'll never know the way she feels
i only know that i weep still
and wonder if another love
is written in the books above
and could it make me skip and jump
like some foolish giddy chump
a love that heals the wound i wrought
and reconciles these damned thoughts
not just someone who wants me
but abolishes this foul infamy
which rankles me within my breast
it cries 'you lost the love that's best'
some love to reprieve this hard damnation
and is more then merely consolation.
